For readers who do not know, I’ve worked with elementary kids on a volunteer basis for quite a few years… this year (at age 65) I’ve embarked a new “career” as an elementary substitute teacher.
When I got the call last Monday that I’d be needed at school, I was momentarily struck with the reality that going “to work” included the distinct possibly of not coming home. Like many, I’d been mourning the huge loss we experienced in Connecticut. As a society we’ve trusted teachers with our children’s education for a long time. The Newtown tragedy has demonstrated that we also trust those teachers and staff with our children’s very lives.
While I in no way want to diminish the loss of those children and adults, as time has passed I think we might consider that we are also mourning the loss of safe havens for children to learn. The grief that we are feeling calls out for answers and brings with it a rush to prevent this type of tragedy. We want to bring back those safe places.
One of the most meaningful things I learned about “classroom management” while preparing to become a substitute was the observation that “the only behavior you can truly control in your classroom is your own.”
One day this week I was working with first graders on an art project. I’d been warned to keep them busy or “they will make your life miserable.” We’d been doing quite well, actually, when I suddenly lost control of the classroom. Amid the coloring and cutting and pasting and cries of “Mr. B, can you help me with this?” very suddenly and spontaneously one child started singing “Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer.” Within seconds fifteen little voices chimed in and I was left to stand and watch the unfolding of what might be described as a “Normal Rockwell Moment.” For at least six renditions of the song (the part they remembered) my life was anything but miserable.
But it was not because of anything I did.
Every sane person wants to prevent the type of tragedy we experienced on December 14. As we work through the grief, I believe we need to remember that six year old who decided to sing. To be sure, somebody taught him to sing. But he decided it was time to sing. If we don’t remember him and his choice, we are in danger of deluding ourselves into thinking we can fix this by controlling things (guns, videos, the media, etc.) and perhaps even people.
I’ve asked myself what I might do to prevent this type of tragedy and believe the long look answer lies in another truth: “It is easier to build strong children than to repair broken adults.” While we cannot ignore those broken adults, we (collectively, not just teachers) are “breaking” children every day by missing opportunities, failing to provide structure, and in too many cases engaging in outright abuse and neglect. The same newspaper that headlined the Newtown events also carried a story of an eight year old girl who was raped. These tragedies deserve equal outrage.
Anyone who spends any time working in schools has met them–the kids we are breaking. A kid who is constantly angry for reasons we don’t yet understand–copes by screaming and pushing his way around. The loner who is always seen off by herself during recess…
All of the other reindeer
used to laugh and call him names.
They never let poor Rudolph
join in any reindeer games.
Just this week a nine year old confessed to being tired first thing in the morning explaining that her dad goes to work at 3 AM and she’s required to get up to care for her younger brother. She’s a real good kid and I think will grow up to be a responsible adult. I’m not indicting her Dad, because it’s likely an economic necessity. But she’s carrying a lot of weight on her young shoulders–can we be sure whether it will make or break her?
What happens to us shapes us, but we decide who we are. Those of us who are fortunate enough to work with kids have a key–we need to focus on building strong children who learn the skills–including the skill of self-control–that will allow them make good decisions about what they will do and who they will become.
Then all the reindeer loved him
as they shouted out with glee,
Rudolph the red-nosed reindeer,
you’ll go down in history!
Well said. Controlling your own behaviour in the classroom is a critical aspect to being a great teacher.
I also think it’s worth mentioning that along with these horrific tragedies like Connecticut, we should be thankful that those sorts of things are as rare as they are. Of course, ANY occurrences should be met with outrage, horror, and a desire to change, but thank God that we aren’t hearing of these with the same frequency as unrest in the Middle East or arguments about taxes.
Finally, thank you for mentioning building strong children. I can’t do anything about the parents of my students, but I can certainly do my best to make their children happy, safe, and ready for life in the real world.
You’re welcome… thanks for adding your thoughts. I think our focus becomes so very important. Another of my frustrations is that many organizations and “programs” designed to help children and youth seem to forget what the mission is and it becomes about all about the program and the organization. One of the reasons I enjoy working with kids is that a day does not go by that I do not see reasons to believe there’s hope!
Walter, you speak and write so well that I am sure you will so a wonderful job as a Substitute Teacher not to mention your love of children. I appreciate the “Rudolph” Flash Mob story and chuckled a little when I read it.
Thanks, Bob… I made several pledges to myself when I started–one being that I won’t forget I’m teaching children, not subjects. Although as a “writer,” I’m sorry I didn’t think to call the Rudolph Story a “flash mob!” There’s something even funnier about thinking of six year olds as a flash mob!